on cheering last year –way too late post

This year’s cheering competition couldn’t be more different from last year for the our acad org. For one it wasn’t raining last year. We were pirates with deathly glares not aetas with loony smiles. Sure the costumes were as skimpy as it was last year but it’s Skimmers…it is expected. Then there’s also the fact that Skimmers are champions again. YES YOU READ THAT RIGHT! SKIMMERS HAS GOTTEN HOLD OF THAT COVETED TITLE AFTER TWO AGONIZING YEARS. I know that I am just a spectator and barely helped my org regain the crown this year but I am just so proud of my fellow Skimmers who shed their sweat, sacrificed their voice, and had their skins painted just for the sake of getting the crown back. It wasn’t an easy thing — cheering especially if you get that pressure in your head. I know because that’s what I felt when I was a freshman. But I know also that the pressure for the freshies just doubled because they had to redeem our organization from the 5th place flop that we were last year to — if not Champions– a decent spot. I’m just so proud of that they were able to do just that. I’m even prouder for my batchmates who sacrificed themselves so that our batch wouldn’t be doomed next year. I really respect them because we all have our production and we’re all cramming so that we can produce a decent production for our hard to please professor but they we able to come night after night during cheering practices.RESPECT guys. To our execomm…I’m really amazed with you and congratulate you guys for all those havey cheers and for a job well done.

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FORGIVE ME LORD FOR I HAVE SINNED

I’ve been a very bad Christian today. I’m not even sure that after everything I did today I could still call myself a Christian. If i die tonight I’m not really certain that I will have the guts to face our Lord God.

One of the characteristics of God is that He is a jealous God. He doesn’t want his followers to believe in other gods for He is the only One True God. He also doesn’t want His people to eat food or accept anything that has been offered to idols. This was clearly stated in the Bible and today I was more than happy to disobey Him.

Today Miagao celebrated it patronal feast and I actually looked really excited – I even helped prepare the food – to eat the food. I really let myself drown because I heeded my worldly urges. I let the Devil get over me and convince me that it is okay because our God is full of compassion and mercy and He would forgive me if i ask HIm. This is just wrong and I am ashamed that I had done these things.

I’m a bad Christian for eating foods that were offered to idols but I’m even worse for eating those food even with the knowledge that it is wrong. And I just became a monster for eating those food even with the knowledge that it is wrong and took advantage of God’s merciful attribute. I’m so ashamed Lord. I have let you down. I didn’t ask the Holy Spirit’s intervention and I clearly tainted my church for this sin. I have also shamed my parents because they’ve been teaching us to stay away from eating food from the idols ever since I was kid and what I did today was just complete defiance of the supposed values they’ve instilled in me.

It is also pathetic for me to have done that sin. I only did it all because of free food and I let my stomach be my god and it was just so wrong.

I have already asked God for forgiveness but that doesn’t change the fact that I broke a covenant today. I am just so ashamed.

Being Pathetic for Completely Wrong Reasons

I don’t know why I’m having these feelings right now. I’m not even sure if I wanted to get splashed by paint or dance with the beat of the music, but I do know I’m disheartened that I’m not going to black light this year – for the third time in a row.

Last year I wasn’t feeling as melodramatic as right now – nor did I feel it on the year that I was a freshman. But today I’m actually disappointed that I’m missing the “biggest acquaintance party” in the campus. I have an idea to why I’m feeling so down this year. It could possibly be because we had initially planned to go party tonight – but like most big plans we had, it never pushes through. I know it’s funny for me to make this thing into something that I can be depressed of. That’s just crap.

To be honest I wasn’t really feeling this shitty when this day began. I was actually up for sleep and of course some fellowship with other Christians through the campus bible fellowship but when I saw him earlier my mood just shifted on to full mode depression. He was standing with his friends, looking like the fresh and cool guy that he was. They were lining up to enter the vicinity where the party will be held and he might or might not have seen me while I was looking for a way to get someone to buy us Thirsty drinks (I know. But Php 50 is such a big amount for an entrance fee. Ugh). I’m not really sure why but ever since I saw him earlier, the desire to get to the same vicinity that he’s in just came over me. It is pathetic, I tell you and I know that it is wrong and childish and I don’t have any justification why I’m feeling like this right now because I know that it’s just because someone that excites me is there partying and flirting with other girls. It’s really pathetic.

I’m also pathetic because I’m feeling things that I shouldn’t feel at all. I had better things to be remorseful tonight and not attending the blacklight party isn’t one of them. One for example is missing the Campus Bible Fellowship mass orientation. I know this is something better and I know that I should attend this year because it is one way to be closer to God. But what I did was to find ways to no attend it just because I wasn’t strong enough or that I always put worldly things first. I hate myself for being like that but I hate myself for not doing anything at all to change that. The very sad part is that I had given my word to Cairrie that I will attend but I just deliberately avoided it. Sad.

Anyway, I have better things to do than feel sorry because I’m not in the field watching these singers –instead of hearing them belt out Jessie J.’s Flashlight completely out of tune (sour grapping? I don’t think so).

don’t know why I’m having these feelings right now. I’m not even sure if I wanted to get splashed by paint or dance with the beat of the music, but I do know I’m disheartened that I’m not going to black light this year – for the third time in a row.

Last year I wasn’t feeling as melodramatic as right now – nor did I feel it on the year that I was a freshman. But today I’m actually disappointed that I’m missing the “biggest acquaintance party” in the campus. I have an idea to why I’m feeling so down this year. It could possibly be because we had initially planned to go party tonight – but like most big plans we had, it never pushes through. I know it’s funny for me to make this thing into something that I can be depressed of. That’s just crap.

To be honest I wasn’t really feeling this shitty when this day began. I was actually up for sleep and of course some fellowship with other Christians through the campus bible fellowship but when I saw him earlier my mood just shifted on to full mode depression. He was standing with his friends, looking like the fresh and cool guy that he was. They were lining up to enter the vicinity where the party will be held and he might or might not have seen me while I was looking for a way to get someone to buy us Thirsty drinks (I know. But Php 50 is such a big amount for an entrance fee. Ugh). I’m not really sure why but ever since I saw him earlier, the desire to get to the same vicinity that he’s in just came over me. It is pathetic, I tell you and I know that it is wrong and childish and I don’t have any justification why I’m feeling like this right now because I know that it’s just because someone that excites me is there partying and flirting with other girls. It’s really pathetic.

I’m also pathetic because I’m feeling things that I shouldn’t feel at all. I had better things to be remorseful tonight and not attending the blacklight party isn’t one of them. One for example is missing the Campus Bible Fellowship mass orientation. I know this is something better and I know that I should attend this year because it is one way to be closer to God. But what I did was to find ways to no attend it just because I wasn’t strong enough or that I always put worldly things first. I hate myself for being like that but I hate myself for not doing anything at all to change that. The very sad part is that I had given my word to Cairrie that I will attend but I just deliberately avoided it. Sad.

Anyway, I have better things to do than feel sorry because I’m not in the field watching these singers –instead of hearing them belt out Jessie J.’s Flashlight completely out of tune (sour grapping? I don’t think so).

He Gave Me Premature Ventricular Contraction

It was something I haven’t felt for a very long time. In fact, it was something I have never felt before. Just meeting his eyes for less than a millisecond made my heart skip a beat. An effect he doesn’t usually have on me until today. It wasn’t special, really but for me it was something to be remembered. I couldn’t even keep my head up and had to look down to hide the smile that was invading my chubby cheeks. I couldn’t even listen nor hear KJ’s and Airah teasing behind me and walked ahead just so I could freak out (probably fathom at what just happened. hahaha.) I don’t know how I had that mini cardiac arrest because it doesn’t usually happen when I see him. Nor has it happen when I see other guys I like. It’s always a smile, heart beating faster than usual, a blush but never did my heart skip a beat before. I know I’m over reacting but it’s actually nice to have someone to admire, someone to watch out for in this freaking traumatic roller coaster that is called life.

I don’t really know him – we’ve only been classmates in one subject and I just sat next to him for like a couple of minutes (which I’m still trying to decide whether bliss or just a transition from me noticing him to me like him). I’m not going to lie, I do imagine him being my boyfriend. I know its a long shot and it would probably never happen but its fun to imagine.

I don’t know why but I rate him as boyfriend material. I know he’s smart and he’s kind of close to girls but definitely straight. if I will have the chance to get to know him I really would.

Filtering

I hate Ate Donna’s texts. There all about her day and her crush and all the things that should be really said (or texted) to that particular person and not sent to everybody else. It’s really annoying to have to read all about her sad little day and how she misses that guy in her office. Sometimes its about how that guy is someone else’s boyfriend. It’s really so annoying.

Sure I do miss hanging out with her but I don’t need to know what she did word per word. I especially don’t need to know why she’s spending her Valentines at the office. Seriously? She surely need to filter what she sends in other people’s inbox.

I’m not the type to rant about a friend but she’s sort getting on my nerves and her messages are kind of self centered lately. I want to tell her to not make her texts diary entry but I haven’t seen her for ages and I don’t know how well she would respond to it.

Guess this is just me dealing with stress. Hahahaha. Imagine it’s been only two weeks since school started and we’re already on productions?

Blissful Three Day Break

Sunshine and incredibly good weather greeted as I first set foot on the island of Cebu. Good omen. I had been excited about this trip for the past several days and all the fatigued of travelling from the mountains of Miagao to t Cebu vanished the moment the slight cold air of the island hit my face, awakening me from my zombie state.

I never imagined that my first time in Cebu will be together with my college friends. I’ve always thought that if I ever go there I’d be with my family or I’d be alone in some back packing adventure but reality was, well, better. way way better.

aerial (?) view of the island

aerial (?) view of the island

Touchdown

Touchdown

We’ve only gotten cable TV last year so basically I grew up watching local shows like MagTV na Amiga, TV Patrol and others. I know that we only get the shows from Iloilo and Bacolod but it was an awesome experience to be inside studios similar to where these shows are being taken.

Inside ABS-CBN Cebu studio: backdrop

Inside ABS-CBN Cebu studio: backdrop

inside ABS-CBN Cebu studio: cameras---sophisticated ones. hihihi

inside ABS-CBN Cebu studio: cameras—sophisticated ones. 

I was in awe after I saw those sophisticated equipment inside the studio of ABS-CBN and TV 5. I felt like I entered a different dimension and when we had that tour inside those rooms where they do the editing and when our facilitator told us that they sometime switch to their audience if ever their talents made mistakes made me realize how important the job of technical directors is. Then he also told us that for all those switching equipment they only have one technical director. I want to give their TD a round of applause because I was having so much trouble with our simple switching device inside the ISBL and there he or she was with all those sophisticated buttons to push…I mean it’s just so amazing.

inside ABS-CBN Cebu studio: editing room

inside ABS-CBN Cebu studio: editing room

pushing these buttons has to be part of one's system

pushing these buttons has to be part of one’s system

outside of ABS-CBN studio

outside of ABS-CBN studio

outside of TV 5 Studio

outside of TV 5 Studio

lighting and temp of the studio was a complete opposite the outside environment

lighting and temp of the studio was a complete opposite the outside environment

Selfie with Bianca inside  TV 5 studio

Selfie with Bianca inside TV 5 studio

I also love listening to MOR so it was a thrilling experience for me to be inside the booth of MOR Cebu and what could be more thrilling than that than to be on air and listening to the DJ speak on air. Once I realized that I was on road of this industry, I considered working as a DJ. I mean it’s really fun to be speaking with listeners and playing music and all that. Although the DJ told us that they only get like two days off a year I still think that her job rocks.

inside MOR booth

inside MOR booth

the dream: watching a DJ    live on air. awesome. #DJJackyG

the dream: watching a DJ live on air. awesome. #DJJackyG

RPN radio booth: fun filled session

RPN radio booth: fun filled session

The same with when we went to RPN 9’s studio booth. Although I didn’t understand the reporters word per word it was still fun to be there watching them joke around and interview some of my classmates.

broadcasters interviewing Joel #pasensyaati

broadcasters interviewing Joel #pasensyaati

out of a movie: the academy

out of a movie: the academy

It was a bit disappointing that we weren’t able to go inside the Big Foot Studios (I was really looking forward to that part of the trip) but I’m thankful that I got to at least glimpse what’s inside the Academy. Their building looked like something out of a western movie. Or maybe it was just me being so new so such campuses. But they had really cool academy.

Big Foot Academy

Big Foot Academy

Big Foot Studios from the academy's rooftop

Big Foot Studios from the academy’s rooftop

I am so thankful for the trip because it made me see how beautiful the island of Cebu is. To be honest the island wasn’t

Magellan's Cross

Magellan’s Cross

anywhere on my bucket list I probably found it too mainstream andI’ve been hearing a lot about snatchers around an area in the city. But this trip changed my whole perception of Cebu. It looked a lot much better than Iloilo. And the malls…it’s like you’ll never get tired of going there.

Sto. Nino Church

Sto. Nino Church

Pedro Calungsod Church doesn't look like a chruch from the outside at all

Pedro Calungsod Church doesn’t look like a chruch from the outside at all

Taoist temple's very own Mushu! glad to finally Mulan's sidekick

Taoist temple’s very own Mushu! glad to finally Mulan’s sidekick

I particularly enjoyed our trip to the Lapu-Lapu shrine because I kind of felt connected to history and bought some really cute trinkets like my dream catcher. Even though it was really hot and the sun was burning my already toasted skin, the tour was still an awesome experience for me.

first Philippines war hero: Datu Lapu Lapu

first Philippines war hero: Datu Lapu Lapu

Lapu Lapu Shrine

Lapu Lapu Shrine

a mural of the Battle of Mactan

a mural of the Battle of Mactan

my dreamy dream catcher

my dreamy dream catcher

other dream catchers and trinkets in Mactan

other dream catchers and trinkets in Mactan

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But one the things I really enjoyed during our tour was the food! It was so amazing. I know I kind of added a lot of toxins in my system because of out all the meals I had during the trip, I think I ate crispy pata 3-4 times. It was unhealthy, yes, but we don’t get a lot of those back in the mountains. The desserts are simply delicious. It was a perfect ending to a perfect meal.

It was a sad moment when I had to climb inside the bus taking us to the airport because I don’t when I’d be back to this island. I mean the two days of roaming around was just too short for me. Besides coming back to reality, leaving Cebu was like leaving a party which just started to be fun.

our pre-roomate selfie

our pre-roomate selfie

travelling will always be more fun when we're with good company

travelling will always be more fun when we’re with good company

almost the first thing we did when we entered Cebu's airport

almost the first thing we did when we entered Cebu’s airport

my buddy or as she prefers me to refer to her, my non-existent boob

my buddy or as she prefers me to refer to her, my non-existent boob

Anyway, I really enjoyed this tour and I’m so happy that I got to see those sophisticated devices and that I had this glimpse what it’s like to be working for the industry. Not only did I discover Cebu but I also learned a lot of things. I really hope that I could be back there but I’m sure that it wouldn’t be as fun if I’m not with my classmates. But I’m still hoping that I could go back there soon…there’s still so much to see.

anneyeong Cebu! May we see each other again soon!

anneyeong Cebu! May we see each other again soon!

16 Unconventional Signs You’ve Found Your Soulmate

we’ll meet soon enough >.<

Thought Catalog

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1. You’ve split up — often unpredictably and unexpectedly. Soul mates rarely experience “happily ever after” right away, despite what media and culture tells us. Often the meeting is too intense to absorb immediately, and you have to separate for a while. You find your way back though.

2. They’ve changed you for the better. The people who we are affected by the most are the ones who have changed us just by their presence in our lives overhauling everything we thought we knew and wanted. It’s not a bad thing, this is supposed to happen, usually.

3. You recognize a family member in them. This sounds strange, but in my best friends and romantic partners, I can always tell they’re going to be someone to me upon first meeting because they instantly remind me of my mom or dad or sibling — not in a creepy way, in a…

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